This week has not been my week when it comes to playing the role of Mommy. Sadie has been dealing with two more teeth coming in and a sore throat/cold. On top of obviously not feeling good, she’s simultaneously discovered how to purposefully disobey us (think climbing on top of the coffee table and then throwing a fit when I physically take her off and tell her she’s cannot do that to furniture) only to give me “the look” as she attempts a repeat. Let’s just say that now that she knows when she is doing something wrong, she does not like what consequences come afterward.
What kiddo does?!
Add this wonderful blend of challenges to the fact that I am pregnant, tired, and usually not feeling my best, and we have a Mommy with not a lot of patience and who is feeling pretty crummy that things have not improved much at all this week.
It’s one of those weeks where you feel like you are just no good at your job. Even though you try your best, it’s not yielding the results it should.
You’re committed to doing the right thing, even though it’s the hard thing.
Every morning this week I have woken up with the hopes that she will be in a good mood. I wake up hoping that we can cuddle, read, play, and get something accomplished like we normally do. But everyday this week, I have woken up and within minutes felt exhausted by the amount of patience and selflessness it has taken to just get through an hour, let alone an entire day. I’ve felt completely embarrassed that my normally sweet, easy little girl has been so downright aggressive, disobedient, and stubborn.
If you’re a Mom, I’m hopeful that you could understand this phase we’re going through.
- No amount of snacks you have shoved into the diaper bag will help keep your toddler from wanting to scream and get their way out of the shopping cart after sitting in it for 2 minutes. Too bad you have to ditch the cart and leave the store instead of just grabbing the 3 things you need at the store. That would require 6 hands.
- No amount of bribing will get your toddler to sit in the car seat and buckle in without screaming and flailing on the floorboard of the car. A half hour later, nothing has changed and you’re late. And crying yourself.
- No amount of food will make them want to sit in their high chair.
- No amount of toys or books will let you take a shower without screaming because they are angry you are taking a moment to care for yourself and not giving them your undivided attention.
As a result of sickness and teething that have led to these instances, there are:
- Dishes piling up in the sink.
- Dinners that haven’t been made because I’m exhausted by the time 5:00 rolls around.
- Loads of laundry that have yet to be done.
- Organization that has now wilted itself down to chaos.
- A husband and wife team screaming for some down time to reconnect.
If you can relate to my kind of week, please feel free to comment. It will make me feel much more normal!